(Trigger warning Self Harm and Suicide.) I am currently “Locked” in my own head. In my head I say things like I just want to be able to “Slap myself”, ”Sort it out” or “Pull myself together”. I know they are not useful phrases, I know they are not helpful, I know it’s not as …
A little over 5 years ago our son X was born. This was before B had been in a mental health hospital, before she’d started seeing the mental health team and before any suicide attempts. Technically our birth story started with B suddenly announcing when I was in the bath that perhaps we should have …
B’s mental health problems do tend to go up and down. Sometimes she can seem absolutely fine, and other times she seems completely lost in her mind. Times when it’s hard can vary massively, it would seem that “Time flies when you’re having fun” isn’t as straightforward a description as it might appear as from …
The first thing you need to remember if you discover someone you care about has self harmed is not to panic! I can’t tell you about everybody’s self harm, or what it means for that person, I can just tell you what I have learned over the last few years. I had no knowledge of …
Firstly, I wanted to thank everyone who has contacted us over the last few months to show their support and understanding of what is and has been going on with us, some of whom even shared their experiences with us. A few weeks ago I wrote a post entitled: Making Friends With Anxiety. Just as an …
Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to accompany a 4 year old and someone with anxiety to a (probably packed) Christmas Fayre… Cue music! The school Christmas Fayre has been looming for a while to be honest. Sometimes B has been keen on going, sometimes she’s said she wont be able to …
Making friends is hard, I know this, I’ve got my own confidence issues that make it seem like a herculean task to “chat” to someone I don’t know, especially being the first person to say something. In theory, because we now live back where I went to school I should be surrounded by friends and …
Tomorrow is our wedding anniversary, 9 years ago B and I got married, so I thought I’d share what we got up to. It was a fantastic day, loads of people have said it’s one of the best wedding they have been to! All we wanted was a stress free wedding, where people could have …
Just to prep you, this is quite a long post and it covers some serious things. It is written from memory from a time where I was fairly sleep deprived so may be a bit vague in places. A few years ago around Christmas B had an “Angel Reading” done by someone online. She had …
The morning after B and I got together, we started planning our wedding! No, really, we did. OK, so we were actually just pretending and planning a theoretical wedding and joking around. We’d decided that normal weddings weren’t really for us, neither of us like formal things anyway, especially B, to whom the thought of …